Friday, October 30, 2009

Thursday, October 29, 2009

You need to lite your cigarettes and laugh at all your jokes

I only had one class today. I'm missing friends who are in differnt
parts of the country, so for them I tried to have a good me day.
Sometimes the best intentions don't make up for history. If I keep
watching women walk out of my life my head might explode. I'm always
walking after them, today I'm driving by, and if that doesn't help I'm
having a drink on the patio. That's how someone would want it.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Don't bother trying to explain angel...

I'm sitting in a bar full of shuffleboard, cheap beers, and men who
say "son". The company is mixed, and strange, and perfect. The
bartender has put on two songs that are driving me crazy with the
their appropriateness. I'm remembering a hotel in San Bernadino when I
bought "Live Though This". I'm remembering breaking up with a
girlfriend after seeing Taking Back Sunday and the Lawrence Arms at
Chain Reaction in Anahiem.

I would talk about it more, but there is shuffleboard to play. Things
are a mess, I'm happy.

Friday, October 23, 2009

I'm sorry, it's been a while, I owe you...

Tonight I'm drunk.

Tonight I'm not going to blame anyone else for the shit I'm dealing
with.

Tonight I spent time with friends who care about me alot.

Tonight I remembered how much that mattered.

Tonight I realized where I've been fucking up.

So to Whit: I'm sorry. I never told you how much I loved Harley, and
how I am sad to see her go.

To my dad: I'm glad you're better, stay that way.

To my mom: I'm glad you're still sober, it makes me very happy and
hope for the future.

To Dan and Tony: I know what's coming, and I've dodged some bullets
already, and I'm excited for the rest.

To Bill, Hickman, Tim, Conner, Gabe & any other possible groomsmen in
my wedding: sorry it didn't happen, but it's gonna happen someday, and
it'll be great.

And to me? Fuck em, you'll be fine

Thursday, October 15, 2009

My new favorite spot in the world.

I happened to be looking out the window during class and saw someone
walk across the roof of the building next to mine. I found it, and it
is amazing, to me.

Monday, October 05, 2009

Your kindest words

There are about six to seven things I need to get by on any given day.
Today's list is as follows.

1- burrito
2- some sing along song
3- a smile from a stranger
4- a woman with a sexy voice
5- the memory of someone who is gone
6- an unexpected message
7- a little relief from responsibility

Let's see how the day goes

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Once, twice, three times a...

Salvation? Not so much. If there's one thing I've learned from my
father, mother, grandpa, grandma, and myself, it's that this doesn't
ever fix anything. It doesn't make it better. You feel better, but
everything else is still fucked. And I guess it is ok. Because at the
end of the day we have nothing to show for it anyways, right? Everyone
grows up, grows old, and grows apart. We don't talk, we don't dance,
we don't fight, we don't love, we don't fuck. Battles are singular,
pain is minimal, and lessons learned are few. Will we change? No, it
works. Will we survive? No, it doesn't work.